okay, so it has been a really long time.... i am so sorry! i have honestly not been in the mood to spend extra time on the computer, just to repeat everything i have been living, for the last 3 weeks. but here it is.
we have been busy. death in the family. funerals and trips. sickness in our household. time off from school and work. trips to Missouri to see long lost friends. extra work (overtime, on call, weekends.) and finally 1 weekend to sleep in and not have to "do" anything.
the reason for this blog is something that has weighed heavily on my mind since 11/4/08. those who know me, know!
We voted! it is our DUTY as United States citizens. this was one of the foundations our country was built upon... the right to " have a say"!!!!
Thas is what my father and husband have fought for, and i intend to show my spouse and dad appreciation for giving me the right to SPEAK every chance I get, for the rest of my life. Whether people think i am dumb or narrow minded, I do not care about their opinion, it is NO better than MINE!!!! I know that EVERY person on this earth, is a gift from God. that does not mean that i have to AGREE with every person. and I do not believe that " those who voted for the the winning team" are RIGHT or know all of the truth.
What i do know is GOD has a plan. Whether that is to leave this world stranded, to make it on our own (because we have taken him out of his creation), or whether He has a better plan. He is still on the throne. and I and my family will be going Home when He takes us! This world is NOT our home! "As for me and my house WE will serve the Lord"
If this world is meant for destruction then that is okay... I believe God will spare his followers from torture, and me and my house will be safely led home.
I love this land and the Freedom it gives me. I married a man, and came from a man, who Proved this....more than any mans "word" that they love this country. PROVE IT!!!! My Dad and my Husband fought for this country, they layed down their life for this country, despite family, they made promises for this country, and stuck by them. To me NO MAN or WOMAN less than that, should be allowed to Rule this country. They have not shown the SACRIFICE it takes to prove they LOVE this country. I trust no man to make decisions on behalf of my country or family, unless they have PROVEN, a sacrifice to this land!
Just because a person looks young and vigorous, sounds good with words, and has a pretty family, DOES NOT mean they will lay down their LIFE for the country they "love" and can make the best decisions for our land. In conjunstion with this, I also KNOW that all men and women who make this "sacrifice" are NOT cut out to fill the difficult role of President of the United States of America. It does Take a Special Soul. I just believe the 2 MUST be joined.
I did not make it to my reason for this Blog..... I will continue tomorrow on the interesting story I heard today, while driving in my car.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Wow, I cant believe its the 21st of October already?!?!?! It has been terribly busy. Ive thought about what all I need to be writing down in this Blog, and then I talk myself out of it. Because I should be doing work, or homework, or laundry , or cleaning, or sleeping or a million other things.
We went to a funeral on Thursday last week. There is not much I want to say about it. It was the most horribly tragic thing I have ever been to. I work for a Hospice program, I'm a nurse and I have been to alot of family funerals. This was atrocious. No mother should have to bury both of her children within 3 years. Both at the age of 25.
We went to Jefferson City MO. this past weekend for a Rodney Carrington stand up show and to the Casino! Rodney was really funny, however I don't think I will ever get used to his crudeness and cursing. I had to go. I went to see Brad Paisley in concert, in August, with the girls so I promised Daniel he could see Rodney. This had been a long hard week, however, we had the tickets for 2 months and I could'nt let Daniel down. He was SOOO excited. I could have let him go up by himself but.......NO! To top it all off, Aiden woke up with a cold and a fever on Friday morning( at 0530) and Camille came home early with a sore knee, that she hurt 6th hour running track. My mom was the planned babysitter 6 weeks ago and I should have called/warned her, but I couldn't bring myself to tell her "oh, by the way, I'm bringing you 2 pitiful (sick and hurt) grand kids". I am thankful because it was my mom babysitting, at least I knew my kids would be WELL taken care of!
It was my first trip ever, to the Casino.....it wasn't all its cracked up to be. Daniel and I each lost 20 dollars....might as well just flushed it down the toilet! It was boring, we did the slot machines, because I know nothing about gambling cards or dice. Apparently you dont have to know anything about slot machines either. All you have to do is hit a button or pull the handle. You win a little and lose more. When youv'e spent your money the machine just quits working. I could have read a book while I sat there. The thing that made it the least enjoyable was all the cigarette smoke! We were there about 1.5 hours and left smelling like we had rolled in an ashtray, we were nauseated and had stuffy noses. Totally not something I could do on a regular basis. There was actually a lady there that was using the bathroom and as she was leaving the custodian said " hi Bertha (fake name) how are you feeling? have a good night and Good luck"!!!! how often must you frequent a casino for the staff to know you by name???? how much money do you have to lose to get there????
DIGRESSION: I thought we would become more restless with Harrison Arkansas the longer we lived here, but it appears the opposite has happened. The more we have traveled locally, the more beautiful and charming we find North Central Arkansas (Harrison). It is lovely. We find that there is a wonderful small town feeling, with all the amenities we need. And its not TOO busy. Although I am not too greatly satisfied with THIS house, I hope that we will be happy with the location for a long time! We only wish we had some couples friends to spend time with. When Daniel was in the Marine Corps, we constantly had cookouts, played cards, went out for dinner, had fun with various couples/families! This last year alone together has brought us closer, and we enjoy each other alot. But now we need more. We have friends close by, within hours, but can only see every so often, on the weekends. I don't want to meet new friends! I want the ones I love dearly, closer to us! When did everything get so complicated? I remember when I was 20, I just moved out of my small hometown, to where my best friend lived, just because I was sick of it. I guess as we get older and families grow and money becomes more important, things get harder! Its very SAD!
Non sequeter: We actually stopped and looked at 2 houses tonight. This is very out of the ordinary for Daniel. He usually cannot see the positive in things enough to dream about things like a house in the near future (2 years). He actually stopped willingly just because I was interested, and seemed interested himself! They are older homes in Harrison, that have been newly renovated. Less than $100,000, can you believe that? He actually sounded hopeful and was trying to picture us in them? Unbelievable!
I have my 4th algebra test on Thursday. I really should be doing homework. I wonder doubtfully, whether I will realistically, be able to go on in school. This is REALLY HARD, I'M NOT SUPER MOM!! I feel bad leaving all of my wifely duties (laundry, cleaning, cooking dinner, tending to the kids), after iI get home from work, to Daniel while I limit myself to 2 hours of work on the computer and 2 hours of homework, in the evenings, only to get ready for bed. I will have to really think and pray about these plans of mine. This masters degree journey will take alot of time away from my kids and my home life. We'll see?!?!
Another change of subject: Aiden is feeling better. Maybe a trip to the country (meme and papas) did him good, although he did manage to give me a terrible flesh eating virus (Cold Sore) on my nose. Only my 2nd in my life. Luckily I learned from my 1st last year that Abreva and Novitra really work!!!
Camilles knee injury is healed "its a miracle", and it was quickly attributed to a 7th hour science test, on Friday, that she squirmed out of. Unfortunately she didn't realize that she would also miss a movie and an overnight stay at a friends house due to her "inability to get onto the bus and walk home"! She must not really be my child, science was my favorite subject....NOT HERS, it is always a wonder when she pulls a C in that class!
Daniel is planning on fishing this weekend (surprise, surprise) , even though I have to work and I'm on call! Is this FAIR???? Who will watch the kids??? I guess if Camille is old enough to stay home by herself or with Aiden, for an hour during the week, then she can anytime? I'm not quite sure I want to start this wonderful strategy, as I relinquish all good excuses I have for keeping Daniel home while I'm out seeing sick and dead people, at all hours of the night and day during the week and weekend! Am I being Selfish?
Have I mentioned that I'm getting rather burnt out on this job! I am trying my hardest not to let my work slip because its not fair to the sick people, and I have some patients that I care for deeply, that I don't want to give up., but its hard to work a job that your tired of and dont really like! I saw an old professor of mine working at the college that I attended 10 years ago, and it made me nauseated to think of working the same old, consistent, monotonous job for 10,15 25,30 years until retirement!!!! Maybe there was some divine intervention (GOD)that lead me to chose this career. Thankfully, I am not tied down to 1 job or 1 field. I have the ability and approval to try a new job every year, if I wish. I love the people I work with and I love the flexibility of this job, but I find myself dreading every day....wanting a day,a week, a month, off! That cannot mean I'm working to my best ability. I told my boss today that I do not see myself doing this for another 1 or 2 years. To my great surprise she sympathized with me, understood. She didn't try to talk me out of my thoughts or feelings, or try to convince me to stay. That was nice. I guess it does take a special person to be a nurse....a RESTLESS, CHANGE NEEDING, person.
Its getting late, and I have to work tomorrow....Imagine that!
Until next time,
Laurie
We went to a funeral on Thursday last week. There is not much I want to say about it. It was the most horribly tragic thing I have ever been to. I work for a Hospice program, I'm a nurse and I have been to alot of family funerals. This was atrocious. No mother should have to bury both of her children within 3 years. Both at the age of 25.
We went to Jefferson City MO. this past weekend for a Rodney Carrington stand up show and to the Casino! Rodney was really funny, however I don't think I will ever get used to his crudeness and cursing. I had to go. I went to see Brad Paisley in concert, in August, with the girls so I promised Daniel he could see Rodney. This had been a long hard week, however, we had the tickets for 2 months and I could'nt let Daniel down. He was SOOO excited. I could have let him go up by himself but.......NO! To top it all off, Aiden woke up with a cold and a fever on Friday morning( at 0530) and Camille came home early with a sore knee, that she hurt 6th hour running track. My mom was the planned babysitter 6 weeks ago and I should have called/warned her, but I couldn't bring myself to tell her "oh, by the way, I'm bringing you 2 pitiful (sick and hurt) grand kids". I am thankful because it was my mom babysitting, at least I knew my kids would be WELL taken care of!
It was my first trip ever, to the Casino.....it wasn't all its cracked up to be. Daniel and I each lost 20 dollars....might as well just flushed it down the toilet! It was boring, we did the slot machines, because I know nothing about gambling cards or dice. Apparently you dont have to know anything about slot machines either. All you have to do is hit a button or pull the handle. You win a little and lose more. When youv'e spent your money the machine just quits working. I could have read a book while I sat there. The thing that made it the least enjoyable was all the cigarette smoke! We were there about 1.5 hours and left smelling like we had rolled in an ashtray, we were nauseated and had stuffy noses. Totally not something I could do on a regular basis. There was actually a lady there that was using the bathroom and as she was leaving the custodian said " hi Bertha (fake name) how are you feeling? have a good night and Good luck"!!!! how often must you frequent a casino for the staff to know you by name???? how much money do you have to lose to get there????
DIGRESSION: I thought we would become more restless with Harrison Arkansas the longer we lived here, but it appears the opposite has happened. The more we have traveled locally, the more beautiful and charming we find North Central Arkansas (Harrison). It is lovely. We find that there is a wonderful small town feeling, with all the amenities we need. And its not TOO busy. Although I am not too greatly satisfied with THIS house, I hope that we will be happy with the location for a long time! We only wish we had some couples friends to spend time with. When Daniel was in the Marine Corps, we constantly had cookouts, played cards, went out for dinner, had fun with various couples/families! This last year alone together has brought us closer, and we enjoy each other alot. But now we need more. We have friends close by, within hours, but can only see every so often, on the weekends. I don't want to meet new friends! I want the ones I love dearly, closer to us! When did everything get so complicated? I remember when I was 20, I just moved out of my small hometown, to where my best friend lived, just because I was sick of it. I guess as we get older and families grow and money becomes more important, things get harder! Its very SAD!
Non sequeter: We actually stopped and looked at 2 houses tonight. This is very out of the ordinary for Daniel. He usually cannot see the positive in things enough to dream about things like a house in the near future (2 years). He actually stopped willingly just because I was interested, and seemed interested himself! They are older homes in Harrison, that have been newly renovated. Less than $100,000, can you believe that? He actually sounded hopeful and was trying to picture us in them? Unbelievable!
I have my 4th algebra test on Thursday. I really should be doing homework. I wonder doubtfully, whether I will realistically, be able to go on in school. This is REALLY HARD, I'M NOT SUPER MOM!! I feel bad leaving all of my wifely duties (laundry, cleaning, cooking dinner, tending to the kids), after iI get home from work, to Daniel while I limit myself to 2 hours of work on the computer and 2 hours of homework, in the evenings, only to get ready for bed. I will have to really think and pray about these plans of mine. This masters degree journey will take alot of time away from my kids and my home life. We'll see?!?!
Another change of subject: Aiden is feeling better. Maybe a trip to the country (meme and papas) did him good, although he did manage to give me a terrible flesh eating virus (Cold Sore) on my nose. Only my 2nd in my life. Luckily I learned from my 1st last year that Abreva and Novitra really work!!!
Camilles knee injury is healed "its a miracle", and it was quickly attributed to a 7th hour science test, on Friday, that she squirmed out of. Unfortunately she didn't realize that she would also miss a movie and an overnight stay at a friends house due to her "inability to get onto the bus and walk home"! She must not really be my child, science was my favorite subject....NOT HERS, it is always a wonder when she pulls a C in that class!
Daniel is planning on fishing this weekend (surprise, surprise) , even though I have to work and I'm on call! Is this FAIR???? Who will watch the kids??? I guess if Camille is old enough to stay home by herself or with Aiden, for an hour during the week, then she can anytime? I'm not quite sure I want to start this wonderful strategy, as I relinquish all good excuses I have for keeping Daniel home while I'm out seeing sick and dead people, at all hours of the night and day during the week and weekend! Am I being Selfish?
Have I mentioned that I'm getting rather burnt out on this job! I am trying my hardest not to let my work slip because its not fair to the sick people, and I have some patients that I care for deeply, that I don't want to give up., but its hard to work a job that your tired of and dont really like! I saw an old professor of mine working at the college that I attended 10 years ago, and it made me nauseated to think of working the same old, consistent, monotonous job for 10,15 25,30 years until retirement!!!! Maybe there was some divine intervention (GOD)that lead me to chose this career. Thankfully, I am not tied down to 1 job or 1 field. I have the ability and approval to try a new job every year, if I wish. I love the people I work with and I love the flexibility of this job, but I find myself dreading every day....wanting a day,a week, a month, off! That cannot mean I'm working to my best ability. I told my boss today that I do not see myself doing this for another 1 or 2 years. To my great surprise she sympathized with me, understood. She didn't try to talk me out of my thoughts or feelings, or try to convince me to stay. That was nice. I guess it does take a special person to be a nurse....a RESTLESS, CHANGE NEEDING, person.
Its getting late, and I have to work tomorrow....Imagine that!
Until next time,
Laurie
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Just an update...
Okay, I had only 3 blogs for last month. This takes a bit more time, effort and energy than I first believed it would.
I don't have anything of any relevance to jot down, but I thought I'd let all know I'm still alive.
Aiden is doing much better in school, his behavior is improving. At first he had a difficult time, compared to preschool where he was the best in class and "he could do no wrong" apparently he just needed to learn his position. And its not on TOP, of the Kindergarten class.
Camilla unfortunately has developed sort of a complex about her thighs. And if you know my daughter she is far from FAT! This is why its so upsetting to me! She refuses to wear shorts and has stopped dressing out in her sports class, which has lead her to not make the Basketball team. She has decided to finish out the year in her girls athletic class, and participate with the other girls. However she doesn't think she wants to play sports. If this is the case then that's okay. She still has band, and maybe she'll find an interest in choir? On a good note, she went to her first Junior High dance and had a fabulous time. She wore the cutest outfit, I will post pictures. Despite her "flabby legs" she got asked by multiple boys to go to the dance with them, but declined all offers. She said wanted to go with the girls.... so she could dance with all the boys. HMMMM what a concept!!!lol. So lots of boys asked her to dance.....and how many did she dance with???? NONE!!!! That's my good girl. I keep telling her that boys are DUMB. (How long do you think this will work?)
Daniel and I have started some different tactics to try and change both of our childrens attitudes towards us and the constantly talking back. It is taking a significantly larger amount of patience on our behalf but neither of us liked yelling so much anyways. It appears to be working pretty well, and we hope it will get better. At least the tension level in the house is alot lower since Daniel and I are not so angry anymore.
I am pleased to announce that I still have an A in my College Algebra class. I made a 96% on my last test!!! Yea ME! I know its all so silly but, I really didn't think I would ever pass this class.
Turkey Trot is this weekend, and I'm excited! I guess its just Nostalgia! Audra and Daniel and the boys are gonna come up and hang out with us so That makes me even more Happy!
Also Daniel and I are going away for a weekend to the St. Louis area for a concert and to visit some Marine friends of ours. Its going to be so fun. We will also try our luck for the first time ever in the Casino. We don't plan on winning much or any, simply because we haven't much to spend! We will be on a tight budget of 20$ each. Very excited about this as well. I am praying that Bobby gets to come home for this, he is still currently in Virginia, awaiting his medical discharge.
Our floors are in, I can't wait to start laying them. Don't know when it will be! We are pretty booked up these next couple weekends. Maybe we can fit it in some weeknight?
I'm just waiting to publish this Blog, for my pictures to download, so I can post Camilles Dance. Of course it is the last one I took, on MY FULL memory card, of 443 pictures of our July vacation to Maryland and Washington D.C.. So its the last to download. I cant believe I have gone this long without printing them! I can hardly hold my horses to start scrap booking them, I suppose I am in fear of the cost it will be....15 cents for 440 pictures??? OUCH! Baby steps I guess. I look back at some of them and think " hmm these look pretty darn good!" I do think I would like to take some amateur photography classes some day. I would also like a really expensive high quality camera, as well. I heard on the radio today that God has given us the ability to Dream. So we should not be afraid to confess our dreams, no matter how BIG (our house) or SMALL (a camera), to Him and allow Him to show us He is the God of dream making and much more!
O.K I got the pictures loaded but it is sideways. I dont know how to rotate it? Can anyone help me?
I am trying to say all my prayers and do all my devotionals. I'm not giving up. I guess He didn't say "this road will be easy." =)
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Random
Ok, Its been a while and this is about to be Tons of Random thoughts, just smackin' the page. ( with minimal editing! as I feared, editing is the reason I dont write more often.)
Its been crazy busy this week. We tore up the carpets in the house, ordered floors to lay, and painted the entire living/dining/hallway area. I worked way too hard this weekend. I was sore and aching, therefore didn't sleep well on Sunday night. I woke up every time i rolled over with my feet, legs or hands hurting, wishing i had taken some ibuprofen like i thought about doing. I thought at one point in the night that i was going to have to have surgery on my wrists because my hands/arms kept falling asleep in the night. I'm still trying to decipher this phenomenon. I was Way tired yesterday, I wanted a nap, but didn't get one because of phones, dogs, kids and husband. However i went to bed fairly early last night and slept well.
Just to wake up to another crazy hectic day. I neglected to take Aiden and get his 5 year shots and physical before the school year started, I procrastinate like a queen, thinking i would have plenty of time next week.....
random digression, Camille enters my room and.... Her attitude is going to drive me crazy!!!!! I cannot handle feet stomping on the stairs like they weight 400 lbs and the sarcastic tones in her voice, not to mention she has a response for EVERYTHING!!! Add patience to my prayer list...check!
So I received a call from the Elementary school saying "times up (apparently I didn't have more time the next week) if he doesn't have his shots and physical by 10/1 then he cant come to school" OH MAN Ive done it this time!!! so it took over 2 hours to get shots today, I only THOUGHT i could tackle the physical as well...
and in this time i had to take Camille a pair of jeans, because horrid cruel 7th graders like to poke fun about dumb stuff , which causes alot of emotional damage to an already emotional preteen.
Digression again... so after the shots i show up to work and get nothing done, apparently i ramble on in person as well as on paper or the keyboard, just to rush off to class. After class I have 4 patients assigned to see between noon and 1630, not to mention 2 in different cities each 30 miles away which equals out to be approximately a 100 mile trip.....you do the math. its not humanly possible! Thankfully it worked out that i only had to see 2 of the 4 patients, i fear i would still be driving around all of gods creation to see these patients had it not worked out!
I have missed so many appointments lately That I'm starting to feel as if i really cant do it ALL! i cant seem to keep all of my ducks in a row, so i bought an organizer. And Thus gives me 2 more things to do in a day. Look at it and write in It. Why is it, in the search to become more organized and effective with life chores, it adds more stress and chores. I'm hoping that if i can stick with it it will become easier, what is the saying " it only takes 3 days to start a habit", We will put that theory to a test!!! I am grateful to my dearest friend Audra for the boost she gives me by recognizing that I am pretty busy. Some how in all of this I find myself feeling lazy? Is this a valid feeling?
I do not want this blog to be a constant Nag session, so here are some good things. I have found a new interest in my GOD and My Savior.
I have grown up a believer and in church so maybe this is not "new" just a RE-interest. I think this is evolving from a few recent thing. (In no particular order)
1. I have rekindled a friendship with a wonderful Godly woman, who I've known and loved for almost 18 years, I love you Audra, I look up to you in so many ways and I pray that i will show myself to others as you have to me.
2. A wonderful movie that just came out Fireproof. This movie has really hit home with me. It showed me some things i needed to recognize and it sparked some questions that I will have to search/study my God to figure out. And it amazes that I am still learning on a daily basis that God plays a part in so many unrecognized things in life.
3. I have acquired a new love and enjoyment for contemporary christian music, thanks to Sirius Spirit. Music has always been very important to me, in ways that are not explainable. I never really enjoyed this type of music, because I didn't "know" it, I couldn't sing along. I have found contentment in just listening to the words and feelings that these other Believing people are saying.
4. I think I have finally found a church that i can feel comfortable in and excited about. It has been a long time, years, that i felt lost. I am anxious to get involved and hear what God has to say.
5. A blog called Bring the Rain. Inspiration.
6. Stressful times in my life have forced me to realize that the only solid ground I have to stand/lean on is God. I walk by faith everyday, with out it i would be angry, scared, confused, lost, sad, and all of the other emotions that God wants to deliver us from.
7. I recently recognized that my husband needs my prayers and my light to shine for him. I have forgotten this and let the importance of this slip through all my cracks. Now I'm back In. The Power of a Praying wife, will be my new constant companion.
8. I have a family that needs to be raised in church, and my responsibility as a parent to provide them with the knowledge and resources they need to get to know God, has also been pushed aside. No Longer. This has become a priority.
9. Lastly, knowing that this physical world is crumbling under our feet as God has told us will happen in the end times, and a knowledge and fear of what is to come to those who believe and those who do not believe.
I have a hunger, I want to be a better woman in my family, work, and life. I hunger to grow as a Christ filled woman. I vow to start praying daily for my family. For Daniel. For our Country. For Myself. I purchased the book Love Dare and vow to do that for 40 days. I also purchased a woman's devotional bible and vow to spend 15 minute in this book daily for 1 year. I started a 40 day prayer for our country last Friday, And I will start a 40 day prayer for our countries finances on 10/14. I just happened to read a verse today while in the christian book store that has bound me to these vows. God does not take promises lightly and now that I have voiced them, I must follow through. And so in in taking these vows i add more, (but more important) things to that check off list, that never seems to end.
Its been crazy busy this week. We tore up the carpets in the house, ordered floors to lay, and painted the entire living/dining/hallway area. I worked way too hard this weekend. I was sore and aching, therefore didn't sleep well on Sunday night. I woke up every time i rolled over with my feet, legs or hands hurting, wishing i had taken some ibuprofen like i thought about doing. I thought at one point in the night that i was going to have to have surgery on my wrists because my hands/arms kept falling asleep in the night. I'm still trying to decipher this phenomenon. I was Way tired yesterday, I wanted a nap, but didn't get one because of phones, dogs, kids and husband. However i went to bed fairly early last night and slept well.
Just to wake up to another crazy hectic day. I neglected to take Aiden and get his 5 year shots and physical before the school year started, I procrastinate like a queen, thinking i would have plenty of time next week.....
random digression, Camille enters my room and.... Her attitude is going to drive me crazy!!!!! I cannot handle feet stomping on the stairs like they weight 400 lbs and the sarcastic tones in her voice, not to mention she has a response for EVERYTHING!!! Add patience to my prayer list...check!
So I received a call from the Elementary school saying "times up (apparently I didn't have more time the next week) if he doesn't have his shots and physical by 10/1 then he cant come to school" OH MAN Ive done it this time!!! so it took over 2 hours to get shots today, I only THOUGHT i could tackle the physical as well...
and in this time i had to take Camille a pair of jeans, because horrid cruel 7th graders like to poke fun about dumb stuff , which causes alot of emotional damage to an already emotional preteen.
Digression again... so after the shots i show up to work and get nothing done, apparently i ramble on in person as well as on paper or the keyboard, just to rush off to class. After class I have 4 patients assigned to see between noon and 1630, not to mention 2 in different cities each 30 miles away which equals out to be approximately a 100 mile trip.....you do the math. its not humanly possible! Thankfully it worked out that i only had to see 2 of the 4 patients, i fear i would still be driving around all of gods creation to see these patients had it not worked out!
I have missed so many appointments lately That I'm starting to feel as if i really cant do it ALL! i cant seem to keep all of my ducks in a row, so i bought an organizer. And Thus gives me 2 more things to do in a day. Look at it and write in It. Why is it, in the search to become more organized and effective with life chores, it adds more stress and chores. I'm hoping that if i can stick with it it will become easier, what is the saying " it only takes 3 days to start a habit", We will put that theory to a test!!! I am grateful to my dearest friend Audra for the boost she gives me by recognizing that I am pretty busy. Some how in all of this I find myself feeling lazy? Is this a valid feeling?
I do not want this blog to be a constant Nag session, so here are some good things. I have found a new interest in my GOD and My Savior.
I have grown up a believer and in church so maybe this is not "new" just a RE-interest. I think this is evolving from a few recent thing. (In no particular order)
1. I have rekindled a friendship with a wonderful Godly woman, who I've known and loved for almost 18 years, I love you Audra, I look up to you in so many ways and I pray that i will show myself to others as you have to me.
2. A wonderful movie that just came out Fireproof. This movie has really hit home with me. It showed me some things i needed to recognize and it sparked some questions that I will have to search/study my God to figure out. And it amazes that I am still learning on a daily basis that God plays a part in so many unrecognized things in life.
3. I have acquired a new love and enjoyment for contemporary christian music, thanks to Sirius Spirit. Music has always been very important to me, in ways that are not explainable. I never really enjoyed this type of music, because I didn't "know" it, I couldn't sing along. I have found contentment in just listening to the words and feelings that these other Believing people are saying.
4. I think I have finally found a church that i can feel comfortable in and excited about. It has been a long time, years, that i felt lost. I am anxious to get involved and hear what God has to say.
5. A blog called Bring the Rain. Inspiration.
6. Stressful times in my life have forced me to realize that the only solid ground I have to stand/lean on is God. I walk by faith everyday, with out it i would be angry, scared, confused, lost, sad, and all of the other emotions that God wants to deliver us from.
7. I recently recognized that my husband needs my prayers and my light to shine for him. I have forgotten this and let the importance of this slip through all my cracks. Now I'm back In. The Power of a Praying wife, will be my new constant companion.
8. I have a family that needs to be raised in church, and my responsibility as a parent to provide them with the knowledge and resources they need to get to know God, has also been pushed aside. No Longer. This has become a priority.
9. Lastly, knowing that this physical world is crumbling under our feet as God has told us will happen in the end times, and a knowledge and fear of what is to come to those who believe and those who do not believe.
I have a hunger, I want to be a better woman in my family, work, and life. I hunger to grow as a Christ filled woman. I vow to start praying daily for my family. For Daniel. For our Country. For Myself. I purchased the book Love Dare and vow to do that for 40 days. I also purchased a woman's devotional bible and vow to spend 15 minute in this book daily for 1 year. I started a 40 day prayer for our country last Friday, And I will start a 40 day prayer for our countries finances on 10/14. I just happened to read a verse today while in the christian book store that has bound me to these vows. God does not take promises lightly and now that I have voiced them, I must follow through. And so in in taking these vows i add more, (but more important) things to that check off list, that never seems to end.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Today is just another day.
Well, it has been a most exciting last couple of days, however nothing i can really talk about....sorry to leave you all in such SUSPENSE! I appear to be going through so many decision making processes that some have come to wonder how ever get a moments rest????
Well, i dont know. I dont sleep that well.
Sometimes I feel so incredibly lazy, like nothing ever gets done. However, when I look back at all that is going on right now, I realize that Im just another Mother, Wife, Bread winner. I just wish I had more energy!
As some may know, I am taking COLLEGE ALGEBRA, (for the 4th time), and I have an A!!!
I made a 93% on our last test, while most in the class made C's if not lower! Am I special, or is all of the pent up knowlege, gained by my previous ventures into the perfectly pointless world of algebra, finally showing through my blank stares and wandering thoughts in class? This is doubtful considering the fact that, i either dropped out in the 1st couple weeks, while there was $$$ to still be salvaged; or I failed out in the 1st couple weeks, in all of my last 3 attempts. I have officially been in class for 1 month, I may just succeed! Unfortunately this means I have many more years of Classes to go, as I set out on this journey to accquire a Masters Degree in Nursing. In the far recesses of my mind I always used this class as the reason that i would never have to go back to school, as i knew I would never pass the Dreaded College Algebra that is a required prerequisite to any Bachelors degree. Whether you plan to study the stars as an astrologist, study the animals in agriculture or the human body, as a nurse. Would some body please tell me who the IDIOT was that thought up all these rules and theories of #s called Algebra, and decided that everyone should love to learn about them???? I would like to strangle his neck, then revive him with CPR, an automatic defibrilator, and then put him on a ventilator just to ask him where he thinks Algebra comes into this equation? I really could never do any harm, I just need to make a point and get some answers!
Ok, I digress, this (masters Degree) is a 5-10 year plan mind you. I suppose at that time I will be sufficiently mature to take on the responsibilities of teaching and training aspiring young nurses in the college setting, contingent on me not changing my mind, which appears to be my going trend since Ive hit my mid 20s. I am grateful for the saying "Its a Womans Perogative" ; however this belief is a growing complication between man and wife right now, as he just cannot keep up with me and my decisions.
Anyways, what lead me to my discussion of my studies is, I recieved a Parking Warning today, for parking in a "Reserved" space. Had I been there at the time my warning was issued, I would have been forced to state "hmm well the sign does not say who this space is Reserved for, I just assumed it could be for me!"
We have recieved word that I can do some demolition on the house we are currently living in. I love begining a project with demolition. I am tearing out horrible, disgusting, stinky, stained carpet, and i am stoked about it!!!!! I love demolition and tearing things up! And I despise CARPET!!!!!! It is Putrid! Of course we have to follow this random act of violence with the painstaking chore of laying a new floor. It wont be too bad, in general I love homes and refurbishing them, and at least, in this home we will get reimbursed! I have been busy all evening, I didnt even wait to take off my scrubs before tearing up the NASTY! My hands now feel like stiff, dry, useless appendages that are hanging from my arms, making it difficult to type to my best ability....as though I do it so well!
On a final note I want to apologize for the poor quality of the lovely pink I choose to post my first Blog text in. I did not realize it would strain the eyeballs to crossing, while trying to read it. I am pretty reliable in that I usually only make a mistake once, ...intentionally!
Until next time,
Laurie
Well, i dont know. I dont sleep that well.
Sometimes I feel so incredibly lazy, like nothing ever gets done. However, when I look back at all that is going on right now, I realize that Im just another Mother, Wife, Bread winner. I just wish I had more energy!
As some may know, I am taking COLLEGE ALGEBRA, (for the 4th time), and I have an A!!!
I made a 93% on our last test, while most in the class made C's if not lower! Am I special, or is all of the pent up knowlege, gained by my previous ventures into the perfectly pointless world of algebra, finally showing through my blank stares and wandering thoughts in class? This is doubtful considering the fact that, i either dropped out in the 1st couple weeks, while there was $$$ to still be salvaged; or I failed out in the 1st couple weeks, in all of my last 3 attempts. I have officially been in class for 1 month, I may just succeed! Unfortunately this means I have many more years of Classes to go, as I set out on this journey to accquire a Masters Degree in Nursing. In the far recesses of my mind I always used this class as the reason that i would never have to go back to school, as i knew I would never pass the Dreaded College Algebra that is a required prerequisite to any Bachelors degree. Whether you plan to study the stars as an astrologist, study the animals in agriculture or the human body, as a nurse. Would some body please tell me who the IDIOT was that thought up all these rules and theories of #s called Algebra, and decided that everyone should love to learn about them???? I would like to strangle his neck, then revive him with CPR, an automatic defibrilator, and then put him on a ventilator just to ask him where he thinks Algebra comes into this equation? I really could never do any harm, I just need to make a point and get some answers!
Ok, I digress, this (masters Degree) is a 5-10 year plan mind you. I suppose at that time I will be sufficiently mature to take on the responsibilities of teaching and training aspiring young nurses in the college setting, contingent on me not changing my mind, which appears to be my going trend since Ive hit my mid 20s. I am grateful for the saying "Its a Womans Perogative" ; however this belief is a growing complication between man and wife right now, as he just cannot keep up with me and my decisions.
Anyways, what lead me to my discussion of my studies is, I recieved a Parking Warning today, for parking in a "Reserved" space. Had I been there at the time my warning was issued, I would have been forced to state "hmm well the sign does not say who this space is Reserved for, I just assumed it could be for me!"
We have recieved word that I can do some demolition on the house we are currently living in. I love begining a project with demolition. I am tearing out horrible, disgusting, stinky, stained carpet, and i am stoked about it!!!!! I love demolition and tearing things up! And I despise CARPET!!!!!! It is Putrid! Of course we have to follow this random act of violence with the painstaking chore of laying a new floor. It wont be too bad, in general I love homes and refurbishing them, and at least, in this home we will get reimbursed! I have been busy all evening, I didnt even wait to take off my scrubs before tearing up the NASTY! My hands now feel like stiff, dry, useless appendages that are hanging from my arms, making it difficult to type to my best ability....as though I do it so well!
On a final note I want to apologize for the poor quality of the lovely pink I choose to post my first Blog text in. I did not realize it would strain the eyeballs to crossing, while trying to read it. I am pretty reliable in that I usually only make a mistake once, ...intentionally!
Until next time,
Laurie
Friday, September 19, 2008
1st Times A Charm?
So, i first found out about "blogging" about a year ago. I always wondered if I'd have the time, or enjoy trying it? Im no English major, and i oftentimes dont have much to say, but 'why cant I just write about my nothings'? So this is the first.
Im 29 and a mother of 2, married, a nurse, and a student. My life is becoming busier and busier with every passing day.
My daughter just started 7th grade and the "hormones of a teenage drama qeen will be the death of me"! Although.... my son just started Kindergarten, and my little "angel" has suddenly turned in to a "havoc reeking, destructive, ornery little pain in my rump". Between the 2 of them Im aging much more rapidly than I scientifically should. I was just thinking Id give the 2 of them away and try again- just go back to the starting line- start over. Just kidding I do love my kids!
I have had a rough, long week and dont understand why i have decided to add another thing to do (blog), to my mile long hopeful list of daily accomplishments. Which, By the way, never gets close to being done. But maybe i need to be able to jot my thoughts down at the end of each day to empty out the brain for a good nights rest. who knows, we'll see.
We went to the local highschool football game tonight, because Camille had some Girlfriends over and I dont trust them to be dropped off and left alone. Maybe I'm paranoid and maybe i just know better? We won, in case anyone was wondering, it was lacking excitement and i found myself looking at all the horrible new fashion trends and disrespectful attitudes of our teenage society.
We showed up late because of the above stated hormonal drama queens, so we were left to sit on the lowest bleacher. Which led to this true story, Involving some of the dissrespectful attitudes previously mentioned. I actually said "Excuse us" to a group of these beings who were standing up in front of us, and 1 of the young ladies turned to me and said "your excused" with alot of head wobbling, eyebrow raising a scowl, and a very nasty tone, all befitting an eccentric brat. After being repremanded or cautioned by her fellow teens she very loudly says " What? Im a Bitch", before being ushered away by her cautious friends. Do mothers actually teach/allow their young girls to act this way to their elders or any adults? I do believe my husband showed a great deal of restraint, as he did not say a word. The only consolation for the struggle it took not to bend that young lady over my knee, was that there was a police officer close by who promptly shuffled all of the congregating teenagers off of the walking passage and into the bleachers or out of the stands.
Yes, there are police officers at our HS games. This is new to me, i went to a single A school, there was no need. There were no students to linger about in the bleachers. If you werent playing , you were in the band! And the school staff and coaches were enough to quell any student uproars, if the parents couldnt settle it first!
Well, i feel Ive rambled enough. I have a very exciting day planned tommorow.
Thanks for reading, hopefully I will be like a fine wine and get better with time, at this Blog thing!
Laurie
Im 29 and a mother of 2, married, a nurse, and a student. My life is becoming busier and busier with every passing day.
My daughter just started 7th grade and the "hormones of a teenage drama qeen will be the death of me"! Although.... my son just started Kindergarten, and my little "angel" has suddenly turned in to a "havoc reeking, destructive, ornery little pain in my rump". Between the 2 of them Im aging much more rapidly than I scientifically should. I was just thinking Id give the 2 of them away and try again- just go back to the starting line- start over. Just kidding I do love my kids!
I have had a rough, long week and dont understand why i have decided to add another thing to do (blog), to my mile long hopeful list of daily accomplishments. Which, By the way, never gets close to being done. But maybe i need to be able to jot my thoughts down at the end of each day to empty out the brain for a good nights rest. who knows, we'll see.
We went to the local highschool football game tonight, because Camille had some Girlfriends over and I dont trust them to be dropped off and left alone. Maybe I'm paranoid and maybe i just know better? We won, in case anyone was wondering, it was lacking excitement and i found myself looking at all the horrible new fashion trends and disrespectful attitudes of our teenage society.
We showed up late because of the above stated hormonal drama queens, so we were left to sit on the lowest bleacher. Which led to this true story, Involving some of the dissrespectful attitudes previously mentioned. I actually said "Excuse us" to a group of these beings who were standing up in front of us, and 1 of the young ladies turned to me and said "your excused" with alot of head wobbling, eyebrow raising a scowl, and a very nasty tone, all befitting an eccentric brat. After being repremanded or cautioned by her fellow teens she very loudly says " What? Im a Bitch", before being ushered away by her cautious friends. Do mothers actually teach/allow their young girls to act this way to their elders or any adults? I do believe my husband showed a great deal of restraint, as he did not say a word. The only consolation for the struggle it took not to bend that young lady over my knee, was that there was a police officer close by who promptly shuffled all of the congregating teenagers off of the walking passage and into the bleachers or out of the stands.
Yes, there are police officers at our HS games. This is new to me, i went to a single A school, there was no need. There were no students to linger about in the bleachers. If you werent playing , you were in the band! And the school staff and coaches were enough to quell any student uproars, if the parents couldnt settle it first!
Well, i feel Ive rambled enough. I have a very exciting day planned tommorow.
Thanks for reading, hopefully I will be like a fine wine and get better with time, at this Blog thing!
Laurie
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