Random

Ok, Its been a while and this is about to be Tons of Random thoughts, just smackin' the page. ( with minimal editing! as I feared, editing is the reason I dont write more often.)
Its been crazy busy this week. We tore up the carpets in the house, ordered floors to lay, and painted the entire living/dining/hallway area. I worked way too hard this weekend. I was sore and aching, therefore didn't sleep well on Sunday night. I woke up every time i rolled over with my feet, legs or hands hurting, wishing i had taken some ibuprofen like i thought about doing. I thought at one point in the night that i was going to have to have surgery on my wrists because my hands/arms kept falling asleep in the night. I'm still trying to decipher this phenomenon. I was Way tired yesterday, I wanted a nap, but didn't get one because of phones, dogs, kids and husband. However i went to bed fairly early last night and slept well.

Just to wake up to another crazy hectic day. I neglected to take Aiden and get his 5 year shots and physical before the school year started, I procrastinate like a queen, thinking i would have plenty of time next week.....

random digression, Camille enters my room and.... Her attitude is going to drive me crazy!!!!! I cannot handle feet stomping on the stairs like they weight 400 lbs and the sarcastic tones in her voice, not to mention she has a response for EVERYTHING!!! Add patience to my prayer list...check!

So I received a call from the Elementary school saying "times up (apparently I didn't have more time the next week) if he doesn't have his shots and physical by 10/1 then he cant come to school" OH MAN Ive done it this time!!! so it took over 2 hours to get shots today, I only THOUGHT i could tackle the physical as well...

and in this time i had to take Camille a pair of jeans, because horrid cruel 7th graders like to poke fun about dumb stuff , which causes alot of emotional damage to an already emotional preteen.

Digression again... so after the shots i show up to work and get nothing done, apparently i ramble on in person as well as on paper or the keyboard, just to rush off to class. After class I have 4 patients assigned to see between noon and 1630, not to mention 2 in different cities each 30 miles away which equals out to be approximately a 100 mile trip.....you do the math. its not humanly possible! Thankfully it worked out that i only had to see 2 of the 4 patients, i fear i would still be driving around all of gods creation to see these patients had it not worked out!

I have missed so many appointments lately That I'm starting to feel as if i really cant do it ALL! i cant seem to keep all of my ducks in a row, so i bought an organizer. And Thus gives me 2 more things to do in a day. Look at it and write in It. Why is it, in the search to become more organized and effective with life chores, it adds more stress and chores. I'm hoping that if i can stick with it it will become easier, what is the saying " it only takes 3 days to start a habit", We will put that theory to a test!!! I am grateful to my dearest friend Audra for the boost she gives me by recognizing that I am pretty busy. Some how in all of this I find myself feeling lazy? Is this a valid feeling?

I do not want this blog to be a constant Nag session, so here are some good things. I have found a new interest in my GOD and My Savior.
I have grown up a believer and in church so maybe this is not "new" just a RE-interest. I think this is evolving from a few recent thing. (In no particular order)
1. I have rekindled a friendship with a wonderful Godly woman, who I've known and loved for almost 18 years, I love you Audra, I look up to you in so many ways and I pray that i will show myself to others as you have to me.
2. A wonderful movie that just came out Fireproof. This movie has really hit home with me. It showed me some things i needed to recognize and it sparked some questions that I will have to search/study my God to figure out. And it amazes that I am still learning on a daily basis that God plays a part in so many unrecognized things in life.
3. I have acquired a new love and enjoyment for contemporary christian music, thanks to Sirius Spirit. Music has always been very important to me, in ways that are not explainable. I never really enjoyed this type of music, because I didn't "know" it, I couldn't sing along. I have found contentment in just listening to the words and feelings that these other Believing people are saying.
4. I think I have finally found a church that i can feel comfortable in and excited about. It has been a long time, years, that i felt lost. I am anxious to get involved and hear what God has to say.
5. A blog called Bring the Rain. Inspiration.
6. Stressful times in my life have forced me to realize that the only solid ground I have to stand/lean on is God. I walk by faith everyday, with out it i would be angry, scared, confused, lost, sad, and all of the other emotions that God wants to deliver us from.
7. I recently recognized that my husband needs my prayers and my light to shine for him. I have forgotten this and let the importance of this slip through all my cracks. Now I'm back In. The Power of a Praying wife, will be my new constant companion.
8. I have a family that needs to be raised in church, and my responsibility as a parent to provide them with the knowledge and resources they need to get to know God, has also been pushed aside. No Longer. This has become a priority.
9. Lastly, knowing that this physical world is crumbling under our feet as God has told us will happen in the end times, and a knowledge and fear of what is to come to those who believe and those who do not believe.

I have a hunger, I want to be a better woman in my family, work, and life. I hunger to grow as a Christ filled woman. I vow to start praying daily for my family. For Daniel. For our Country. For Myself. I purchased the book Love Dare and vow to do that for 40 days. I also purchased a woman's devotional bible and vow to spend 15 minute in this book daily for 1 year. I started a 40 day prayer for our country last Friday, And I will start a 40 day prayer for our countries finances on 10/14. I just happened to read a verse today while in the christian book store that has bound me to these vows. God does not take promises lightly and now that I have voiced them, I must follow through. And so in in taking these vows i add more, (but more important) things to that check off list, that never seems to end.