Random

Ok, Its been a while and this is about to be Tons of Random thoughts, just smackin' the page. ( with minimal editing! as I feared, editing is the reason I dont write more often.)
Its been crazy busy this week. We tore up the carpets in the house, ordered floors to lay, and painted the entire living/dining/hallway area. I worked way too hard this weekend. I was sore and aching, therefore didn't sleep well on Sunday night. I woke up every time i rolled over with my feet, legs or hands hurting, wishing i had taken some ibuprofen like i thought about doing. I thought at one point in the night that i was going to have to have surgery on my wrists because my hands/arms kept falling asleep in the night. I'm still trying to decipher this phenomenon. I was Way tired yesterday, I wanted a nap, but didn't get one because of phones, dogs, kids and husband. However i went to bed fairly early last night and slept well.

Just to wake up to another crazy hectic day. I neglected to take Aiden and get his 5 year shots and physical before the school year started, I procrastinate like a queen, thinking i would have plenty of time next week.....

random digression, Camille enters my room and.... Her attitude is going to drive me crazy!!!!! I cannot handle feet stomping on the stairs like they weight 400 lbs and the sarcastic tones in her voice, not to mention she has a response for EVERYTHING!!! Add patience to my prayer list...check!

So I received a call from the Elementary school saying "times up (apparently I didn't have more time the next week) if he doesn't have his shots and physical by 10/1 then he cant come to school" OH MAN Ive done it this time!!! so it took over 2 hours to get shots today, I only THOUGHT i could tackle the physical as well...

and in this time i had to take Camille a pair of jeans, because horrid cruel 7th graders like to poke fun about dumb stuff , which causes alot of emotional damage to an already emotional preteen.

Digression again... so after the shots i show up to work and get nothing done, apparently i ramble on in person as well as on paper or the keyboard, just to rush off to class. After class I have 4 patients assigned to see between noon and 1630, not to mention 2 in different cities each 30 miles away which equals out to be approximately a 100 mile trip.....you do the math. its not humanly possible! Thankfully it worked out that i only had to see 2 of the 4 patients, i fear i would still be driving around all of gods creation to see these patients had it not worked out!

I have missed so many appointments lately That I'm starting to feel as if i really cant do it ALL! i cant seem to keep all of my ducks in a row, so i bought an organizer. And Thus gives me 2 more things to do in a day. Look at it and write in It. Why is it, in the search to become more organized and effective with life chores, it adds more stress and chores. I'm hoping that if i can stick with it it will become easier, what is the saying " it only takes 3 days to start a habit", We will put that theory to a test!!! I am grateful to my dearest friend Audra for the boost she gives me by recognizing that I am pretty busy. Some how in all of this I find myself feeling lazy? Is this a valid feeling?

I do not want this blog to be a constant Nag session, so here are some good things. I have found a new interest in my GOD and My Savior.
I have grown up a believer and in church so maybe this is not "new" just a RE-interest. I think this is evolving from a few recent thing. (In no particular order)
1. I have rekindled a friendship with a wonderful Godly woman, who I've known and loved for almost 18 years, I love you Audra, I look up to you in so many ways and I pray that i will show myself to others as you have to me.
2. A wonderful movie that just came out Fireproof. This movie has really hit home with me. It showed me some things i needed to recognize and it sparked some questions that I will have to search/study my God to figure out. And it amazes that I am still learning on a daily basis that God plays a part in so many unrecognized things in life.
3. I have acquired a new love and enjoyment for contemporary christian music, thanks to Sirius Spirit. Music has always been very important to me, in ways that are not explainable. I never really enjoyed this type of music, because I didn't "know" it, I couldn't sing along. I have found contentment in just listening to the words and feelings that these other Believing people are saying.
4. I think I have finally found a church that i can feel comfortable in and excited about. It has been a long time, years, that i felt lost. I am anxious to get involved and hear what God has to say.
5. A blog called Bring the Rain. Inspiration.
6. Stressful times in my life have forced me to realize that the only solid ground I have to stand/lean on is God. I walk by faith everyday, with out it i would be angry, scared, confused, lost, sad, and all of the other emotions that God wants to deliver us from.
7. I recently recognized that my husband needs my prayers and my light to shine for him. I have forgotten this and let the importance of this slip through all my cracks. Now I'm back In. The Power of a Praying wife, will be my new constant companion.
8. I have a family that needs to be raised in church, and my responsibility as a parent to provide them with the knowledge and resources they need to get to know God, has also been pushed aside. No Longer. This has become a priority.
9. Lastly, knowing that this physical world is crumbling under our feet as God has told us will happen in the end times, and a knowledge and fear of what is to come to those who believe and those who do not believe.

I have a hunger, I want to be a better woman in my family, work, and life. I hunger to grow as a Christ filled woman. I vow to start praying daily for my family. For Daniel. For our Country. For Myself. I purchased the book Love Dare and vow to do that for 40 days. I also purchased a woman's devotional bible and vow to spend 15 minute in this book daily for 1 year. I started a 40 day prayer for our country last Friday, And I will start a 40 day prayer for our countries finances on 10/14. I just happened to read a verse today while in the christian book store that has bound me to these vows. God does not take promises lightly and now that I have voiced them, I must follow through. And so in in taking these vows i add more, (but more important) things to that check off list, that never seems to end.

Today is just another day.

Well, it has been a most exciting last couple of days, however nothing i can really talk about....sorry to leave you all in such SUSPENSE! I appear to be going through so many decision making processes that some have come to wonder how ever get a moments rest????

Well, i dont know. I dont sleep that well.

Sometimes I feel so incredibly lazy, like nothing ever gets done. However, when I look back at all that is going on right now, I realize that Im just another Mother, Wife, Bread winner. I just wish I had more energy!

As some may know, I am taking COLLEGE ALGEBRA, (for the 4th time), and I have an A!!!
I made a 93% on our last test, while most in the class made C's if not lower! Am I special, or is all of the pent up knowlege, gained by my previous ventures into the perfectly pointless world of algebra, finally showing through my blank stares and wandering thoughts in class? This is doubtful considering the fact that, i either dropped out in the 1st couple weeks, while there was $$$ to still be salvaged; or I failed out in the 1st couple weeks, in all of my last 3 attempts. I have officially been in class for 1 month, I may just succeed! Unfortunately this means I have many more years of Classes to go, as I set out on this journey to accquire a Masters Degree in Nursing. In the far recesses of my mind I always used this class as the reason that i would never have to go back to school, as i knew I would never pass the Dreaded College Algebra that is a required prerequisite to any Bachelors degree. Whether you plan to study the stars as an astrologist, study the animals in agriculture or the human body, as a nurse. Would some body please tell me who the IDIOT was that thought up all these rules and theories of #s called Algebra, and decided that everyone should love to learn about them???? I would like to strangle his neck, then revive him with CPR, an automatic defibrilator, and then put him on a ventilator just to ask him where he thinks Algebra comes into this equation? I really could never do any harm, I just need to make a point and get some answers!
Ok, I digress, this (masters Degree) is a 5-10 year plan mind you. I suppose at that time I will be sufficiently mature to take on the responsibilities of teaching and training aspiring young nurses in the college setting, contingent on me not changing my mind, which appears to be my going trend since Ive hit my mid 20s. I am grateful for the saying "Its a Womans Perogative" ; however this belief is a growing complication between man and wife right now, as he just cannot keep up with me and my decisions.

Anyways, what lead me to my discussion of my studies is, I recieved a Parking Warning today, for parking in a "Reserved" space. Had I been there at the time my warning was issued, I would have been forced to state "hmm well the sign does not say who this space is Reserved for, I just assumed it could be for me!"

We have recieved word that I can do some demolition on the house we are currently living in. I love begining a project with demolition. I am tearing out horrible, disgusting, stinky, stained carpet, and i am stoked about it!!!!! I love demolition and tearing things up! And I despise CARPET!!!!!! It is Putrid! Of course we have to follow this random act of violence with the painstaking chore of laying a new floor. It wont be too bad, in general I love homes and refurbishing them, and at least, in this home we will get reimbursed! I have been busy all evening, I didnt even wait to take off my scrubs before tearing up the NASTY! My hands now feel like stiff, dry, useless appendages that are hanging from my arms, making it difficult to type to my best ability....as though I do it so well!

On a final note I want to apologize for the poor quality of the lovely pink I choose to post my first Blog text in. I did not realize it would strain the eyeballs to crossing, while trying to read it. I am pretty reliable in that I usually only make a mistake once, ...intentionally!

Until next time,
Laurie

1st Times A Charm?

So, i first found out about "blogging" about a year ago. I always wondered if I'd have the time, or enjoy trying it? Im no English major, and i oftentimes dont have much to say, but 'why cant I just write about my nothings'? So this is the first.

Im 29 and a mother of 2, married, a nurse, and a student. My life is becoming busier and busier with every passing day.

My daughter just started 7th grade and the "hormones of a teenage drama qeen will be the death of me"! Although.... my son just started Kindergarten, and my little "angel" has suddenly turned in to a "havoc reeking, destructive, ornery little pain in my rump". Between the 2 of them Im aging much more rapidly than I scientifically should. I was just thinking Id give the 2 of them away and try again- just go back to the starting line- start over. Just kidding I do love my kids!

I have had a rough, long week and dont understand why i have decided to add another thing to do (blog), to my mile long hopeful list of daily accomplishments. Which, By the way, never gets close to being done. But maybe i need to be able to jot my thoughts down at the end of each day to empty out the brain for a good nights rest. who knows, we'll see.

We went to the local highschool football game tonight, because Camille had some Girlfriends over and I dont trust them to be dropped off and left alone. Maybe I'm paranoid and maybe i just know better? We won, in case anyone was wondering, it was lacking excitement and i found myself looking at all the horrible new fashion trends and disrespectful attitudes of our teenage society.
We showed up late because of the above stated hormonal drama queens, so we were left to sit on the lowest bleacher. Which led to this true story, Involving some of the dissrespectful attitudes previously mentioned. I actually said "Excuse us" to a group of these beings who were standing up in front of us, and 1 of the young ladies turned to me and said "your excused" with alot of head wobbling, eyebrow raising a scowl, and a very nasty tone, all befitting an eccentric brat. After being repremanded or cautioned by her fellow teens she very loudly says " What? Im a Bitch", before being ushered away by her cautious friends. Do mothers actually teach/allow their young girls to act this way to their elders or any adults? I do believe my husband showed a great deal of restraint, as he did not say a word. The only consolation for the struggle it took not to bend that young lady over my knee, was that there was a police officer close by who promptly shuffled all of the congregating teenagers off of the walking passage and into the bleachers or out of the stands.

Yes, there are police officers at our HS games. This is new to me, i went to a single A school, there was no need. There were no students to linger about in the bleachers. If you werent playing , you were in the band! And the school staff and coaches were enough to quell any student uproars, if the parents couldnt settle it first!

Well, i feel Ive rambled enough. I have a very exciting day planned tommorow.
Thanks for reading, hopefully I will be like a fine wine and get better with time, at this Blog thing!

Laurie